2011 is wonderful actually~

today i will follow my friend to her Futsal team member picnic...

before this i tot that in 2011 after "something" yang tidak diingini berlaku... semua akan berubah... and yes... sometimes mmg weirdo... but... this few days... bila kenal dengan org2 baru...kwn2 baru.. it's was fun... i'm so happy dengan keadaan sekarang... tambah banyak kawan... but... before this ada kwn baru tapi nda boleh get along dengan dia pasal dia sangat triping habis... about the "kaki penguin" in my last post...

yesterday... my friend (nana)... her friend (jenny)... minta kawan pigi ujibakat af and at the same time dia teda transport... so... saya pun mau tengok keadaan ujibakat af sebenar... pigi la kami ni... and the best thing is.... me and jenny just know each other less than 1 month ohh... but yang mcm sudah lama kenal... and masa jenny fill up the af form... ada kena tanya 2 orang kawan baik... kawan baik dia yang number 1... mmg lama sda dorg berkawan... and kawan baik yang number 2... mmm... sya pun nda sangka la dia simpan nama sya as her good friend...

make me smile the whole day actually... tulah namanya kehidupan baru... umur dia 26th... umur kawan dia lagi 1 yang kami sudah mula untuk rapat if i'm not mistaken 30... mungkin lah... syok dapat kenal orang baru... apa lagi yang pure dusun.. bha.. ngam la...

okok... enough with the story of yesterday...

next... today... i woke up early around 7am... bah... macam biasalah... smoking dulu then buat la kerja... my friend still sleeping... nana and adib... then after smoking mmg akan pndai jadi rajin... so... mmg my plan untuk jadi rajin...so kemas la rumah... vacum apa semua...

nda senang mata ni bila tengok rumah samak... then around 9 i will get ready to go to the market cos mau beli chicken wings,... for the picnic.. and... siap la ko nana... ko tia mau bangun... air sejuk la ko rasa ni kali... hahahahahhaha..... devil...

mmm... before 1 end my bicara ini... i just want to say that 2011 mimang best!!!!!!! don't ruin it ah....sepa2 yang cuba untuk musnah kan hari gembira ini... sa pijak kaki ko... paduli ko... hahaha...

ok la... actually my meggie sudah kembang baini... adios!

bangsat!!!

umm... it's monday... suppose to be in the class now... but... i had a migraine yang sangat teruk... my medicine pun habis sudah... i'm not in the good mood too... because of something...

last night... got someone say that my kaki is kaki penguin... cos big and size kasut 7' or 8'... ni perempuan kan... ada saja dia mau kasi sakit hati aku... aku nda faham apa dia cakap... dia kasi ketawa... betul2 bikin panas...

dia cuma tau mau judge aku... aku ni gini2 lah... bla bla and bla... sudah lah kuat merokok... start merokok kunun start form2... tapi perangai merokok bukan mcm sudah lama smoking... know why i say that?.. klu org yg sudah lama merokok akan control smoking... tapi dia... dalam 15 minit... mau 3 batang rokok... WTF?

dia cakap kaki aku kaki penguin... haha... dia nda sedar ka hidung dia actually mcm mau hidung babi... heran... ada juga orang mau sama dia... sudah lah tripping habis... alahai... ada juga prempuan mcm ni zaman 2011 ni ah?... kesian betul sama ko ni... nasib la kesian sama kwn aku yg d labuan... klu bkn psl dia yg minta tolong mau couple sma ko... eee... amit2 deh.... kenal ko pun aku nda mau... kin panas ja perangai....

heran lah... kenapa ah mulut bila bercakap nda fikir dulu?... main lepas sja... bila sudah lepas dari mulut... hah... hati org yg terluka tu ko peduli ka?... aku tau la perangai ko ganas... ganas tpi nda bertempat bha ko ni...

1 thing... dia suka potong apa aku cakap... smlm... kmi d tg.aru beach... mkn mangga... actually aku sangat rasa masam dengan mangga tu... but... because of malas mau bercakap sama ko and dengar cerita ko yang macam nda betul tu... yang rekaan tu... baik lah aku layan mangga....

boring mau layan ko sebenarnya... tapi kesian... (kunun)... org ckp org pernah hantam tu budak... ko pun cakap ko pernah hantam tu budak... aku ckp aku pernah kena kejar polis pasal pukul org... ko pun cakap ko pernah kena kejar polis... org ckp itu... ko pun kunun ada cerita mcm tu... ish... kenapa ah ko ni?... ko macam mau cari nama saja.... di kk ni nda payah ko mau cari nama kunun dengan perangai ko yg berlagak samseng dan "clubbing" saja kunun kerja ko dulu...

bila aku cakap aku nda pernah mandi 1 minggu... astaga... ko pun kunun nda pernah mandi selama 3 hari... eeeee.... geram betul aku sama ko ni... kalau boleh... aku mau cancel ohh bawa ko tinggal sama kami dengan perangai ko mcm ni...

sudah nampak tu dapur bnyk yg nda bercuci... hello! tolong lah bha cuci... walaupun ko tu tetamu... jangan la berlagak sangat... kin panas betul perangai ko ni... bila ko tidur kan... aku tgk hidung ko kan... mcm babi ni... hahaha.... ko sedar ka nda tu?... ko cakap aku berguruh time tidur... ada ko sedar ko pun berguruh jua?... hahaha.... bangsat bha ko ni...

sekarang ni aku cuma tunggu masa dan pok silap ko saja... lepas tu... siap lah.... lama sudah tangan aku ni nda smpai p tempat org... sudah la perangai mcm biatch sasat... seluar bebau mcm setahun nda bercuci.... yuckkks!!! bari gali....

aku harap 1 hari berubah la perangai ko tu yang berlagak samseng.... kunun la puas sudah ko minum chivas dulu... hahaha.... rasa la ko minum chivas mcm minum kopi!!! wakakaka... org semua minum 1 go... kau? dui... kesian... minum mcm minum kopi... yang panas... jadi ko minum cikit2... hahha... actually ko pndai minum ka nda ah?... pelik aku tgk ko minum slow2 ni... nda kn la time clubbing pun ko minum mcm tu?.... shame on u la girl... hahaha.... perangai ko mmg nda lari mcm bangsat! berubah la ko sebelum tangan aku ni kasi ubah diri ko...

mau muntah pun ada ohh tgk ko.... kenapa la kaki aku kaki penguin?... ko lagi lah... dui... kesian... hidung babi... serupa lai... bangga aku ada kaki mcm ni... well... ikut kaki my father....

ehh... lupa... time tu prempuan ckp kaki aku kaki penguin... tau apa jawapan aku yang aku rasa aku puas hati?... aku cakap... "excuse me... besa lah... ikut kaki dady aku"... hahah... trus diam ah dia... then... 1 more thing... tau dia bjln mcm mana? bejalan mcm "v" tebalik... cuba kmu tulis "v" tu tebalik... begitu la kaki dia bejalan... alamak aku bilang... punya la control habis... trip berabis... ko ni kasi malu diri sendiri sja pula kan.... hahaha... apa2 pun... meggi saya sudah kembang! adios...

mix up~

it's Friday... and today i suppose to attend PENDIDIKAN MORAL in my college... but, because of last night tired playing the bubbles with my friend and my cats... i don't feel like want to go lah... probably next time then... plus... last minute got class on Friday... *sigh*... next week lah...

anyway... u guys know ka the bubbles? mmm... u know the air sabun kan?... then ada something untuk tiup the air sabun.. then keluar la tu bubble2... arrgghh... don't know how to explain lah pula... LOL...

well well... today me and my friend (nana) plan to go out... to town i mean... to buy her shirt for futsal tournament tomorrow... but.. someone is coming here... lewat sikit lah keluar ni... harap2 baju tu cepat di cari cos mau print the name on the shirt.... mmm...

i wake up early today... around 8.20am... and i clean up this house... vacuum and so on... and after this post... i'm gonna continue my work... clean up the yard ... the room... the toilet... and blah blah...

got something playing in my head right now... stress... if i clean up the house... kurang ckit the stress... so... sepa2 yg stress tu kan... bagus kemas rumah... relax trus tu... cos... when u feel tired... u don't have time to think the problems... that's my cara la untuk release tension sikit... bila penat... mau smoke... mau tidur... minum cold water... then ampai pantat d sofa.. ok bha tu...

mmm... my friend (nana) punya cats... sudah beranak.. and dia (chulo) selamat melahirkan... and dia ada 3 anak... apa la kabar dia?... is she okay?...

think about the past memang feel like wanna cry... but... what for kan mau fikir yg sudah berlalu... let's just start with the new life... the new journey...

mmm... last wednesday... me and my friend... (sze)... panas sama "someone" in our class... mmm... no need to tell her name lah kan here... and dia suru aku yang talk to the girl yang buat dia panas ni... and request tampar dia... lama sda aku tidak tampar org ni... then... i go and talk with the girl... and there's no point for me to slap her... plus... kesian juga sama dia... nda sanggup mau tampar... so... the problem settle nicely without slap her... :p

2010 december... i take care of my niece in KL... still remember my previous post about them?.. yeah... luke and melody... i miss them alot... especially... LUKE... cos... don't know how to say... dia suka main mata... hahaha... kuat nangis pun dia... :)

mmm... this coming febuary my parents will come to kk... holiday for CNY... at the same time... our friend from labuan also come to kk... to celebrate CNY here... so, i have to arrange my time so that i can spend time with my parents and also our friend... chivas... i'm waiting for u!!!

mmm.... this post memang mix up kan... bha... banyak yang mau d cakap... a lot... and i think sampai cni sja la my post... cos... i want to pee plus i want to clean up this house... weekend bah ni... :) daaaaaa.....

nexus karambunai? :)

whats up with the title?... nexus resort is in kota kinabalu... in sabah... the resort really far from town... but... the place is peace full.... well... less than 1 year i will finish my study in KCC... the good thing is our college ada program to take degree... for only a year... not 5 or 6 year... and the graduation day is in paris or KL... can choose either this 2 place... i wish to go to paris and graduate there...

the study cost me rm20,500... big amount yah... i still thinking bah... mau ambil ka tidak ka... and... nexus karambunai pula.... there's a job yang berkaitan with my diploma... Front Office...

???? study???? malas lah...

???? work???? ofcos... duit tu penting...

still thinking right now... will update my decision soon... :)

Giving Up is Not an Option :)

ummm... i love my title so much... i mean it... :)

actually... i get the words from a book... "the power of a praying woman"...

i am not sure from where i get the book... either from my sister... i kept the book for a long time... a year i guess... then i start read the book 2 days ago... yeah... when i locked myself in the bedroom because fighting with someone... i found the book in my bag... the bag i put all stuff that i don't feel want to use.. kinda "menyamak" kalau kasi keluar semua...

so, i grab the book... and i start reading... firstly memang boring... but... in chapter 1... make me want to read until the last page... sangat betul apa yang di cakap inside the book... fall in love with words... fall in love with the statement and so on... actually... i do planning want to share the whole things in my blogs... i mean with write the whole stuff and publish here... start with the introduction... and until the end of the book...

i just want to share the book of "the power of a praying woman" because... everythings the creator of the book write is true... everything... for sure you guys will in love with the book... maybe if you want to find the book at the book store is impossible... so... with pleasure i willing to type the whole things and share with you guys...

i will start typing on the 1st febuary... well... within this few days... i mean "january".. still many things to settle up... college and so on... so... kasi reda dulu semua hal tu.... then i will start...

so... you guys... just wait for it... i promise... u guys will love it... :)

it's sunday~

it's Sunday guys... and now at home with the "friend of the day"... i mean friend from Labuan... just arrive yesterday... plan wanna go clubbing... but... there's something happen... which is i don't feel want to share it here...

well... for this Sunday i feel so stress... there's a girl that make me hate her so much with her attitude... what kind of bitch huh? tulung la... kin panas... ko sepa ohh mau act mcm tu? nasib ko tu my fren pnya fren.. kalau inda... aku pijak2 muka ko sana... sudah dlm 1 rumah tulung la layan baik2 cikit... ini... senyum pun tidak... macam pantat ayam ja muka ko sana...

btw, i try to cool and relax dulu... pok silap... siap ko... tggu dan lihat sja... sabar sja lah... sudah la perangai mcm slut... eeewww! bari gali tu bana! panasnya hati... menyesal p ambil ko.... teda guna punya prempuan...

what ever it is... im hungry!!!

it's friday~

yeah... it's friday guys.. and i am totally happy cos i don't have class... i have enough time to rest and spend my time with my babies... wenty, lazenda & twen... nice huh... plus i teke my time to clean up the house... nothing much to kemas2 actually... ckit la...

actually.. plan mau bangun lambat cos no class kan... but... my housemate.. "nana"... talking with her friend on the phone and laugh to loud.. smpai lah nda dapat tidur nyenyak... terpaksa la segarkn mata... and bangun.. then i check my phone.. there's a miscall from my beloved dad... so, i call him back and he told me that he already bank in money for me to buy the text book... rm150.. i hope enough to get my text book and whatsoever lah...

and now is 11.39am... nana is still sleeping after "bergayut d fon".. and me? mau tidur balik pun nda dapat... so just now kemas2 rumah sikit... and i already take my breakfast... sosej 3 batang and drink 100 plus... hehehe.... self service... sepa lambat bangun... cari la makan sendiri... ekekeke... kidding.... :p

btw... i do have something to say here... i hate people yang sangat kuat "gossiping"... omg! nda tahan ni... everyday mesti ada saja gossip yang keluar dari someone... which is i don't want to share sepa orang tu di sini... sangat tidak sesuai... i tot... bila umur sudah meningkat... meningkat dewasa lah kn... i mean up to 20... jadi la matured.. but.. nda pula... adui... sakit otak bila dia sudah start mau bergossip... cuba la bergossip bila perlu... but... aarrrghhh! berubah lah yah! :/

mmm... i think thats all i want to write... nda tau pa mau ckp lg... just wanna say tat i want to forget all the bad memories that i have done before... yang lepas tu biar lah kan berlalu.. nda guna ingat2 lagi... buang masa,... just start the new life... and now... i do choose my own life... i am happy with my decision... :)

lalalalalalala~

ummm... lalalala.... i don't have any title for this post... so... i just put the "lalalala"... not important lah actually kan the title...

well, my purpose to write today... cos.. i am totally not in the mood cos thinking of something which is i don't want to share it here... sooooo... mmm... don't know what to say lah... just blogging to release my bad feelings about something... *sigh actually*

mmm... just wanna share something about the teenager... first time clubbing at tiara... "cheers pub"... drink chivas... which is... BLUEK! i don't like ohh... really... but... when the second glass... fulamak... mcm d heaven pula... hahaha.... first time clubbing mmg weird with the environment... but... i wish to clubbing again... hahaha... nakal pula jadinya...

anyway... my problem about the college fees is settle... "AY" u asshole! u just know how to ruin everything... bullshit... :/ thank to my sisters... K&K... (kenny and kerry)....

mmm... what make me sad now is... shit lah... i don't want to write... i just feel safe if i just keep in my heart... :)

thank god for give me another day untuk hidup... :p

i wanna cry!!!!!!

lambat pula masa berlalu... lambat juga masa tu berlalu.... makin banyak beban di kepala yang sangat tidak diingini buat masa sekarang... it's all about money.... it's all about college...

well... about college... about my school fee... ada yang tertunggak rm920... for 3 months punya... the officer said... they wont give me the letter for applying the next kwsp if fees yang tertunggak tu tidak dibayar... wth? ingat senang ka mau cari rm920 tu? i haven't tell my mom or my dad about this bad news... kesian dorg... nnti tambah runsing...

i'm planning work at my lecturer cafe... at asia city... starting at 6pm until 1am something... for rm400... i still thinking about it... boleh ka aku tahan penat tu ah? balik jam1... bangun p class at 6am... arrrggghhhh!!!!! macam mana ni.... i really hate this situation right now...

money for my text book... almost gila bila memikirkan semua ni... god please help me... someone please help me... i can't stand this anymore.... mau putus asa sudah ni... *sigh*

:)

ummm.. nothing so much to write actly... now d cyber with my fren... :p on9... bkn nda dpt on9 d rumah.. but ya la guna BB sja... sangat lambat...

hari ni sangat la tidak patut.. haha... sepatutnya hari ni ada class... but... oleh kerana semalam pigi karaoke and around 1am baru balik... then... tidur pun lambat ckit cos my "bungsu" tertinggal d labuan... mcm mana la boleh lupa.... shit!

sudah dalam keadaan mengantuk tahap dewa... alarm lagi mcm tai2 bunyi... terpksa bgn mau off alarm... then... aku bagu bangun my friend... boleh ka hari ni nda pigi class.. aku sangat mengantuk aku cakap... then dia cakap... nda... bangun lah... umm.. actualy mau bangun sudah... tapi mata tu betebiat nda mau terbuka... so... dengan tidak senang hati... aku pun tutup la mata dan teruskan tidur... haha... sampai la jam brapa aku tidur pun aku nda ingat.. hehe... :) nakal... but i do promise... tomorrow i will attend the class... know what... our class smpai 2.30pm... arrggghhh!!! gila dan gila.... nda boleh trima la class sangat lmbt habis... :(

anyway.... hari ni sekejap mood tu ok... sekejap mood tu down balik... i'm not sure why... mau marah sja.... mmm.... tia tau la mau cakap pa...

hari ni yang sangat menyenangkan hati ialah... aku jumpa kucing aku.... hahahhahaa...... buduh2..... i misssssss my cat so muchhhhhh!!! gigit hidung kmu nanti....

apa2 pun... i do hope SELEPAS INI JANGAN CARI PASAL SAMA AKU... aku tampar ko sana... :) kidding... actually... i mean it...

k la dear diary... that's all for today.... :)

do some good things to avoid from keboringans!!

i think this is my fourth post for the 4th january 2011... i think so... not really sure about it... :)

my previous post i told ya that i don't have anything true... but... actually it's untrue....

after i wake up from sleep... for sure lah not in the mood... rokok pun habis... so... i decide to take my shower... the pegi kedai runcit beli rokok... and yes... I've done that... :) then... after buy the cigarette balik lah rumah... grab some food to eat... then isap rokok... then... untuk buang boring...

i decide lah mau kemas rumah... and yes... i did that... i am so happy cos i done something great... i can lawan my feeling yg mau tidur saja...

i clean up my sister punya "study room"... actually no name for the room... so... i just bagi nama lah... hehe... :) i clean up the room... vacuum... and susun the whole things... susun the clothes nicely... semua lah... i just want to make my sister comfortable with the room... good job right!

thenn... after i clean up the room... i clean up the living room... vacuum... and mop... and also laundry... i've done the job between 4.30pm... :) a little bit tired actually... i really wanna sleep... but... masa tidak mengizinkan...

nasib lah ada "someone" yang layan me... if not... for sure tidur punya lah... :)

hehe..... anyway.. thats all i want to write... nothing so much to say... daaaaaa!!!

always right with my instinct~

hello diary of my whole life~ i am not sure post ni yang keberapa untuk 4th january 2011...

last night... was a terrible night for me... i can't sleep... and i can't think straight... haha.... kidding!

i spend the whole night that i can't sleep with watching movie... online... playing games... that's all...

and this morning... i'm totally bored... so boring... my sister already send her kids to the nanny... so, i don't have anything to do... online? boring... game? also same... sleep? not now... watching tv? arrgghhh! semua la boring...

nasib baik lah ada blog... mmm... lusa ni i'm going back to labuan... and planning with my friend to clubbing... ehem ehem... 1st time lah mau p clubbing... still thinking about it... :)

now is 1:43pm... lapar pun ada... kejap lagi mau masak telur mata lembu lahhh...

my stomach merajuk sudah mau makan.... :)

hmmm... ini la saja my post... daaaaa!

not in the good mood!!! *sigh*

hmm... now is at 4:04am... and 4th january 2011... ngam lah... 4:04 sama dengan 4 haribulan... mati mati mati... mood yg inda menentu... dan perasaan marah yang teramat sangat... nda tau kenapa... aku rasa mungkin aku mau gila sudah... and... aku rasa macam mau nangis berabis yg teramat... mcm mau hantak kepala d dinding biar pecah... mau kasi patah tangan ni... biar terus mati la... habis cerita...

time typing ni pun... tengah crying... im not sure... actually im sure... but... hmm... its my fault... bodoh juga kan... entah la apa aku cakap ni... aku mau memaki berabis!!!! kalau boleh aku mau buang laptop ni!!! aku mau hilang ingatan kalau boleh!! kenapa ah 2011 ni mcm ada something wrong? mcm ada yg nda kena dengan 2011.... hati nda keruan... hati ni mcm mau mati dan mati sja... kenapa ah?

aku heran lah... aku cuma mau cakap d cni...

1)menjaga!

2)menghargai!

3)jangan ambil kesempatan!

4)jangan pura-pura nda tau!

5)jangan buat bodoh!

6)memahami!

blablablablablablablablablabalblaablabalabalabal!!!!!

thanx!

now is 4th january....

mmm.... now is 12.25am.... i'm not sleepy yet...

sorry cos i didn't continue my blog yesterday... i just say wanna continue... but then... after do the house work... mengantuk pula... so... i get some sleep... lama juga lah tidur.... until my sister wake me up and ask me to take care of baby luke cos she wanna go out buy some stuff...

and yet... i'm still sleepy... but... it's my job... so... i need to fight lah supaya tidak mau tidur lagi...

then... take care of baby luke... kasi mandi dia and buat susu untuk dia... and kasi tidur cos he's crying... mengantuk... lepas dia tidur... sya pun mau ikut tidur... but mau avoid daripada tertidur...

macam biasa lah... smoking d beranda... :p

mmm.... today... i just made another decision... i let him go out with his friend... clubbing with mr.chivas... :) lalalalala...

nothing so much to say in this blog... i wan't to sleep but i can't... :( so... apa la mau buat ni? sot2 sudah.... huh....

ok la.... thats all lah for this post.... until see you tomorrow kio... cari movie syok dulu... if tda yang syok... i need to force my eyes to sleep... lol!

daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~

3rd day in 2011 :)

today is 3rd January 2011... it's still early actually... now is 9.13am... i want to sleep back but i can't... sleepy yes but this eyes buat hal nda mau tidur... i'm texting someone but no reply... might be still sleep kali... maklum lah kogutanz... :p

hmm... layan game boring sudah... fb? same... teda yg menarik perhatian... so i decide to do some house work lah... plus... my BIL is around for today... he can take care of melody and luke...

so, ambil lah kesempatan untuk buat kerja rumah... :)

before that... i need to smoking... refill energy lah kunun...

i will continue after this... daaaaa.....

be matured~

its 2nd day in the new year... 2011... well... just left another 3days until i'm going back to Labuan...

mmm... my title be matured... yeah... the age is makin lama makin naik sudah... it's not good bha kan if perangai still like budak2... i mean yes control other people... kesian juga lah kan... so, i let you go then... :)

yes...i'm totally happy with the decision that i made...is it true what i'm talking about? hell yes... but actually kan... 10-90 LOL... :p

this blog i write before i'm going to sleep very the well... i need to control my angry feelings now... cos... when talking on the phone just now... just ily? just imy? and nite? :/

i'm a lil bit angry... like... please appreciate the chance that i give to you... do appreciate me... really disappointed actually... but... what can i do... kepala orang tengah pusing2... im get mad pun no use...

the important thing is... now i wanna sleep well... just wish myself lah... "good night, sleep well, sleep tite, sweet dreams"... :)