THE FIRST POST FOR 2011!

this is my first post for 2011... "diary of my life" u will always become my punching bag... okay?

so... whats up with the picture... well... its my first picture that i captured using my phone... yala... wanna make something special for the first day in 2011... so... take picture la for 1/1/2011...

nothing so much to write actually for this post... just wanna say "hello" to DIARY OF MY WHOLE LIFE...

-mmuuuaaaxxxxx-

happy new year 2011? arrgghhh!

new year 2011 is coming guys... i'm not in the mood for new year actually... cos i'm period... and i spent my time staying in my room for today... not the whole day actually... i'm going out and stay at the living room... and do some house work... laundry... i love laundry!

happy happy new year... busy wishing a happy new year to everyone... but me... arrrggghhh! i hate period~ can i wish to God i don't want to period anymore? i hate the feelings... moody... migrain... stomach ache... and so on... i wish that 2011 i'm not period again...

huh... wishing for the stupid things for 2011? WTF. sot kan... yeah well.... besa la... if period... anything i can say...

i shud be happy for new year... but... because of this stupid things... "i mean period"... not in the good mood... talking on the phone pun yang macam malas this...

ha ha ha ha ha ha.... buuuu for myself cos talking nonsense!

actually now on i just want to sleep.. but... because of something that i don't want to share it here... i need to stand my eyes until 10 minutes before new year... LOL...

hmm... sementara menunggu masa tu berlalu... blog pun i dont have any idea mau tulis apa lagi... so... im out and layan facebook game! to my own blog... "diary of my whole life"... i wish u a happy happy new year ah... just wanna say thank you to you cos you become a part of my life in 2010.. u become my punching bag the whole year....and also the coming years... pity on you... well... thats your job bha kan... ekekeke...

see you tomorrow blog! mmuuuaaxxxx~~~~~

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-LAST POST FOR 2010, TO BE CONTINUE IN 2011-

I'M HAPPY!

new year is coming soon... and yes... 1 more days.. means tomorrow! well, today i'm period... first day! not in the mood ooo... but, i need to force and control myself... so i don't ruin anything... :)

now is 11.00am... writing blog while layan movie indonesia with melody :) the title is I LOVE YOU! hehe... ada Galang... melody pun apa lagi... nda lari mata dia dari TV...

actually now im very sleepy... yang teramat... sudalah period... for sure want to sleep the whole day... apa lagi on the first day...

last night i sleep a bit late... if i'm not mistaken... at 3am... i got my own reason that i don't want to share here... :)

then my sister wake me up and ask me to sleep in her room with luke and melody... i'm not sure what time is it... yang penting langit pun belum biru... sangat lah mengantuk tahap dewa... and nasib baik la luke and melody sleep well... jadi aku pun tidur lah...

then... at 8am... luke pun bangun... melody pun bangun juga... so, i have no choice lah... kena ikut dorang bangun juga walaupun mengantuk yang teramat sangat... :)

next, i bring them to living room... langit pun masih mendung... belum ada matahari... then, ambil kesempatan lah when they watching TV... baring2 lah d sofa while texting with someone...

then, nda lama tu... baby luke meragam... nangis... rupanya... dia nda selesa... cos dia berak... then... aku cuci lah dia... and also tukar pampers melody juga cos sudah penuh... i have no time to smoke... :(

and then... aku buat susu for them... for melody and luke... then... mcm biasa lah... luke mau didukung kalau mau nenen... betebiat kan? memang pun... but today! for the first time! baby luke pegang sendiri botol nenen dia and isap... wow! miracle tau... before ni... mau bagi nenen dia... dia nda mau kalau nda kena dukung... tapi hari ni... dia pegang sendiri... sangat senang hati aku ni... tuhan saja lah yang tau aku gembira... :) then... sementara menunggu luke and melody siap nenen... aku pun ambil kesempatan lah untuk spent time with Mr.Dunhill... :)

hari ni semua bejalan dengan lancar sangat... habis isap rokok... habis juga lah baby luke isap nenen... then... masuk pigi living room... duduk sekejap di sofa... then... bagi mandi melody and luke... lepas urus diorang... aku pun masuk la dapur... masak nasi and masak sup telur... then after siap semua tu... duduk balik d living room...

mmmm... baby luke gosok2 mata... i know... dia mengantuk lepas mandi tadi... so... bawa la dia masuk bilik... mau bagi tidur... i ask melody stay d living room... dia nda mau... no choice la... bawa dia tidur juga... tapi dia nda tidur... then lepas baby luke tidur... bawa melody keluar... cos... almost 10.00am... its time for to eat...

and melody hari ni pun ntah datang penyakit apa... haha... make me so happy... ambil nasi untuk dia... campur sup telur... and i add some tomato sauce... for the first time juga... melody cepat saja telan nasi... selalunya mau 1 jam bagi makan dia... but today... its only take about 20minutes... hmmm... so happy!!!

i was wondering actually... whats the matter with this 2 child... melody and luke... :) sangat senang hati... :)

hmm... finish talking about them... well... new year is coming soon... and only left 6 days until i'm going back to Labuan... :) i hope everything is gonna be fine...

black color white color blue color :)

whats up with this black color? actually, its one of my favorite color. black. why black? i don't know. maybe because i have a lot of black shirt than other color.

some people will describe yang tiada2 kepada orang suka black color. got some people said black metal lah. devil lah. WTH?

well, everyone got their own favorite color bha kan.

actually i love black color because i love black lah. i'm not sure why. its just 1 of my fav color. :)

mmm. white rose? well, white color huh? its my favorite color also.

and yala. i love rose too. actually mau upload gambar mcm the black 1..

but, i think twice.. if white color.. nanti nda

nampak pla mana white tu..

so, i decided to upload white color yang ada object. so, white rose pilihan ku.

mmm. but now i don't want to talk about the rose. but i would like to talk about the color. WHITE~

yes, white is my favorite color. for me, white is such a beautiful color. look nice. look pretty. suci. murni. and so on. i do love white. and yes, selalunya..

saya akan pakai baju warna putih. and pakai seluar hitam. legging lahh. so, jadi la tai cicak. :)

anyway, white is my favorite. my sandal ada yang white color. my phone also white color. my leather case punya handphone pun white color. :)

hmm... by the way.. i'm not done yet.. not just black and white.. got another color yang menjadi pujaan hati siang dan malam. :p

blue color. i love blue so much. i love blue since i'm in form 1. in form 1. saya bagi gabung blue and black color. :) my file and etc..

and until now on. i love blue cos my busuk2 semua blue color!.

my selimut yang bebau blue color. my towel untuk tutup mata also blue color. :) haha. patung saya yang kici also blue. his name bungsu. :) my bantal busuk pun biru. all lah blue.

but, ada dua busuk2 yang tiri. haha. 1 is the small pillow that i bought from Kaison 1 borneo. (white color) and another 1 is my sister punya selendang. green color. last time when she moved to KL. she didnt bring the selendang. so, memandangkan tiada orang mau pakai sudah. saya ambil lah. jadi milik saya. :)

so, why i call both of them my busuk2 tiri. cos dorg dua sja yang lain color. not blue. so tiri lah. hehe.

~thats all i wanna say about my favorite color~

next year i'm 20? OMG!

cepat betul masa berlalu. right? tidur,bangun,mandi,makan,chitchat and tidur balik. good morning. good afternoon. good night. and so on lah. and now penghujung 2010.

just left 2 more days and i'm 20? arrrggghhh! bila sudah 20 next 21 next 22. sehingga lah 30+++.

ohh tidakkkkk. kenapa la cepat sangat masa berlalu ni ah?

apa2 pun. i wish when i'm 20 years old. everything okay saja. :)

mmm... 2011 finish my study in KCC. whats next? further my study? hell NO. benci sudah mau tengok buku!

yang aku mau tengok cuma duit dan duit. that's mean i'm gonna work harder lah. cari kerja tetap.

sebelum mencari kerja yang sesuai untuk aku dan tidak ada "masalah yang tidak ingini" aku akan kerja di mana2 sja la dulu. sekadar mencari pengalaman.

it was nice cos aku sudah banyak pengalaman bekerja. well, muda bha masih. tulah syok. :)

well, what do i wish when i'm 20? clubbing every weekend? ofcos NO!

just. wanna become the very quite girl.

smoking tetap smoking lah ah. :)

bersahaja~

hari ini,

si gadis bertemu dengan merpati,

merpati yang dia puja,

sangat indah mengenang suatu kenangan.

mutiara kecil kecil dan kecil,

mengalir deras deras dan deras,

si gadis bertanya pada dirinya,sampai kapan aku harus begini?

kupu-kupu putih,

datang melawat nya,

memujuk hati yang rawan,

dia enggan dipujuk,

dia masih mau melayan perasaan ini,

kupu-kupu berputus asa dan pulang.

tinggal lah si gadis bersendirian,

ditemani dengan mutiara yang mengalir deras,

betapa hancur hatinya,

setelah mengetahui kebenaran,

kebenaran yang dinanti.

si gadis mencuba untuk memberhentikan mutiara itu,

tapi dia tidak mampu melawan,

kuasa mutiara itu sangat kuat.

dan pada satu saat,

hati si gadis terbuka,

dia yakinkan dirinya,

untuk berhenti daripada membuang mutiara,

membuang mutiara hanya untuk harapan sia-sia.

si gadis merasa sayu,

terdiam sejenak,

si gadis cuba untuk lelapkan mata,

cuba untuk merehatkan tubuh,

tapi tidak berjaya.

akhirnya,

saat ini si gadis,

berjanji kepada dirinya,

untuk buang segala kenangan,

buang segalanya,

dan berjanji untuk teruskan hidup tanpa memuja si merpati.

sekian~

atlast rasa juga the fish massage. :) haha. this picture taken by me. masuk blog sekadar kenangan!!!

on last monday. me and my sister's family. her kids and husband. we went to jusco. and that day i get my salary from my sister for taking care of her kids when she's working. :) TQ.

so, afta jusco me and my sister try this fish massage. its very cheap. RM5 for 10minutes. nice huh?

yup yup. really nice ohh. sangat geli!!! my sister d sebelah sya juga do the same thing. dengan menahan geli. terpaksa la pukul2 my sister punya kaki. haha.

btw, i wanna say thank you to the fish cos suda makan my dead skin on my feet. :)

kepada sesiapa yang belum cuba this fish massage. you should try. dengan rasa geli di kaki tu. atleast you can laugh. release lah juga tension ckit. :)