Winnie Kuntip - Ralan Dii Otopot.flv

*sigh*

so small the picture (",) do you think i'm doing the right decision? can someone help me to answer that? i don't know other's will answer "yes" or "no". i was thinking. but, for myself 50-50. 50% i feel so guilty. another 50% i'm feel so stupid. actually, positive thinking my decision is the best. but, how about the other? i'm telling you, it's not easy to let this thing happen you know. i just force myself. and letting you to know that actually i'm missing you. but, what can i do? i don't want feel the pain for many times like what did happen between us. both of us ever did something wrong. me and you. i can't lie anymore. i'm really sorry for all what i have done to you. like people said, no one in this world never ever have a mistake in their life. and i agree with that. and i know, u always said that to me when we fighting. i know it's not easy for you. am i right? what did i told you? just try our best to let this thing happen. last night, i cry a lot. and i sleep at 5.00am. i'm crying like someone is dying u know. crying and thinking why u have change a lot. i know, i'm not good in English but i do love to try. i don't even know, when u will read this post. i just wanted you to know. that, what did i do now is the best for the both of us. let just be a friend. so, between us will never hurt each other. u know like the song that i told you? by Kotak? i love that song. and the song especially for you. let's just forget about us and start with a new life. i know you can do it. and so do i. i will try my best. try to start a new life. start a new goal. and, what i really want to say is. i will not find a person that so kind like you. it's hard to find in this world that same as you. i know that very well. and sincerely, i'am afraid to start this new life without you. but what can i do? this is the best for us. i need to force myself. if not i will stuck with all the pain and scars in my life. i hope u get what i mean. and what did i do is not to make you hurt. but, i know you can think by urself about this. from the bottom of my heart. i'm really sorry. (",)

UNDECIDED ('')

now is april 19th 2011. bila di hitung2 nda lama lagi mau habis study. but not fully finished lah. mau praktikal about 3 months. if u giys still rememebr, my previous post about the karambunai resort. the 1st place that i choose for doing my practical. and now bila fikir2 sya sudah buat keputusan untuk buat practical d labuan. ada la juga hotel2 d labuan tu yang boleh dijadikan tempat practical. plus, my parents di sana juga kan. apa salahnya luangkan masa sekejap. apalagi skrg beban dorg bertambah.

my title is "undecided" kan... mmg still undecided...masih dalam fikiran lagi dimana mau buat practical lah...itu lah ini lah...sudahlah sekarang tu epf punya masalah belum selesai..bila la mau selesai ni?....nanati syok2 sya practical d sana juga kena panggil ambil test la ambil exam lah...haish!!! fed up tahap gaban yang teramat!!!

bukan tu sja tau...sudah lah broadband digi sya tu dari last year nda bayar...boleh2 sya kena call kena taggih bayar secepat yang mungkin...rm200 lah cincai kira...kalau sya tidak bayar nama sya kena black list lah apa la...tindakan undang2 lah..mcm shit2 sja...nda boleh ka bagi org peluang sekejap...

stress tahap maksima sudah sya ni...di mana assigment lagi yg mau disiapkan yang secepat yang mungkin...semua lah bha kan mau secepat yang mungkin...tidak boleh ka bagi masa yang lagi panjang? arrgghh!!!

ini sja lah sya boleh tulis...kalau banyak2 sya tulis mau meletup sda ni laptop...hahaha...

adios!!!

tindik telinga?..

yesterday after dance competition at UMS.. me, lyoni, rozana, 2 junior and our lecturer going to donggongon... ever heard mega long?.. going to karaoke..rm1 for 1 song..not bad lah actually..just the sound system..and "somethings" is going on..don't want to mention here...

then..bagus2 gila nda datang..datang balik pla mau tindik2 telinga..supaya rasa sakit..n mau rasa nangis..klu banyak duit sya time tu..sya mau tindik bnyk2 d telinga..baru la...hahaha....

susah betul kan kalau ada perasaan mcm ni..stress..bikin org jadi gila...and bikin panas...and mcm mau tampar2 sja tu org..mcm nda pndai sedar pla yg ko tu tengah menyakitkan hati org?...ko mau sya buat yg mcm ko buat?.. mau ko rasa apa sya rasa? mau?

mmg ko nda akan faham...mmg ko fikir hal tu tiada pa2 buat ko..tapi buat sy mcm mna? fikir lah...thanx a lot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!