Thursday, December 16, 2010

christmas + december

december 2003? december 2005? december 2006? december 2007? december 2008? december 2009? what happen with all december? :) let it be secret. make me comfortable with my own secret that i never reveal until the right time. only december 2010 different.

i miss all this december. especially 2003. :)

sometimes i do hate december. sometimes i don't.

december 2003? sweet moment happen. i will never forget about it. im gonna remember until the end of time. until i die maybe. even no longer with it. never mind. im always fine. remember the day. make me cry. why i can't stop thinking about you? why i can't hate you? i don't have any answer for that. i think. i should forget everything about you. thinking of you is stupid thing. u will never come back to me. right?

out here. theres someone that always love me, care for me and waiting for me. i should appreciate it. even you are my first love. i've been waiting for u for many and many years. right now. i'm really sure that i should stop loving you. it's hard to forget about u. because its christmas 2003. i'm not sure what happen to u now. but i will always pray for u that u will happy with the girl that you have choose.

today, 16th december 2010. secara rasmi. i will stop loving u. i will stop thinking of you. and i will stop hoping that u will be mine. :) i'm happy to say all this. because from now on, i will love for someone that always love me. waiting for you just waste my time. it's better i start my new life with the one.

i'm gonna erase everything about you in my memory. even hard to erase.but, i think nothing is impossible.

:) merry christmas everyone!

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