the tattoo of mine

this is the new tattoo of mine. actually i made this tattoo just to show how my heart is. what is the condition my heart. some people will understand and someone do not understand.

i don't blame any of you if you guys can't understand my situation. it's hard to explain. it's hard to start from the A and from the Z.

and i know in 5 years have in a relationship with this person. there's a sweet memory that we create for each other to keep safely inside our heart. and also the bad memory that i do create for the person that i love. and i'm sorry for that.

before this i made the big stupid decision to broke up after the 5 years we having the sweet moment every second every minutes and so on. and i come back. because i just realize my heart only for the person that taking care of my life for 5 years. so, i decide to have a relationship again. then the person accept me. i'm so happy. happy only for a few days before i know the person heart had been taken by someone else.

then i know now, how i hurt the person is a big mistake. because i felt that way right now. this moment. not only in my heart and also my nerve. the person that i do love and miss have someone else. and they can texting each other in front of me. honestly, i'm hurt. really hurt. everything is hurting me. the person that i love called the girl "syg". taking care each other. i'm hurt. i'm down.

i want to let it be. stay away from the person that i love. but, the person that i love don't want to let me go. what is that mean? want to see how hurt i am? you do know actually. and i can't accept it.

so, the person that i love wanted to make a deal. a stupid deal that i should not accept it. the person want in a relationship with me and also the girl. and the person that i love ask me to do the same thing. i can find another 1. seriously, before this just make it simple. i can. but right now, the situation is not same.

yet, in front of you i still can pretending that i don't feel anything if you still contact with the girl. and i'm done. the tattoo at my back show the condition the real condition my heart is. it's called broken heart. and yes. i'm a broken heart girl. i let you play with the girl, it's up to you. whatever it take, i'm not longer will be beside you anymore. i'm going. i will bring my heart go away from you. enough with the hurt that you create with me. i realize i deserve it.

now you free. there's no one and not me will stop your decision. you already saw the present that i give you today. and i will bring it far away together with me. i pray for your happiness.